When my meandering-mind ‘brain-candy’ resonates with reader – old thought, or fresh one, something causes me pause: what does this mean? If not captured, who knows where that thought might go or what trouble it might cause? Or it might have evaporated if I’d not captured it on this page …
That might explain some of the ‘how’, but what about my ‘why’?
Why, in the beginning, was an experiment to show my daughter ‘ready, fire, aim’ strategy could work – writing from a standing start could happen – never imagining it would unlock something in me that would otherwise roll around in my mind, in my belly, could possibly be of interest to or resonate with anyone else. I proved to myself I could do it.
Why continue? Why became interwoven with some writing ambitions – further experiments, but at the root of it every day is exploring with fingers on keys to fine or unlock what is the essence of me.
Seems to have overtaken many other daily priorities, become essential part of daily life, I can’t imagine what my life would be like without it now. I could stop publishing. Writing value would likely be the same, but daily connection with readers would be lost.
I’ve found great value, not just in feedback notes or calls, but those ‘changed-someone’s-life’ moments. Those calls or visits – startling ones, when someone tells me words I put on a page impacted them. Once that realization hits (perhaps as applause validates performers on stage), there is no looking back, never again confused about why.
written / published from Calgary, AB
morning walk with Gusta: 8C/47F, light overcast but a buffer of blue on the horizon welcomed our sunrise, Gusta went exploring fresh territory but couldn’t find a satisfactory stopping place – traffic is resuming Monday morning normal early hum while streets are still summer doldrum quiet ...