When things are different, better, out of the ordinary or plainly and simply fantastic, I have a tendency to look externally – to explain, in terms of what someone did, what someone else caused …
Case in point – yesterday.
Wonderful day. Early morning tasks went well, scheduled appointments, interview and lunch (thanks DM) – made a full happy productive day. Trouble free. Angst-free, On days when everything fits/feels right, things go as planned, nothing comes flying in from left-field to unsettle me or upset well laid plans . . . I admit to mentally looking over my shoulder.
You know what I mean, days when things seem too good to be true. We all have them – I’m sure of that – but not often enough. What causes them?
What made yesterday sweet and today even better? They look like ordinary days, the calendar isn’t different and neither are the players. I’ve seen them before – unpredicted, uncaused, unusual. Really.
Maybe it’s me?
Could I be the cause of my one good fortune, the way I could be the cause of misfortune?
Of course I can.
Of course we can.
We all can.
I think I caused it.
I wonder, if I do the same things today and tomorrow if I can cause it again, and again, and again?
Nothing big happens all at once. Happens in bits. Tiny things, many things, many tiny incremental and cumulative changes. Many. And when they add up, combine and collide – new things happen.
Feels like a chemistry lab experiment.
Adding ingredients, never knowing what might boil-over, explode or combine in ways never expected.
Maybe it’s me?
Of course it is.
column written/ published from Calgary, AB
morning walk: 6C/42F, slippery/treachery in terms of traction for me, fresh air and traffic congestion made for an entertaining walk.