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Thursday Dec. 7, 2017

Is happiness in search of me?

Or am I in search of happiness?

If love/success/opportunity came roaring toward me – like a car in traffic, how would I know?

Would they flash their lights, slow down, speed-up, wave as they go by? How would I know?

Which begs the question of whether love is head-on collision – or something completely different.

I was discussing this over dinner recently with an old friend who has known me through many ups, downs and hairpin turns on life’s path …

Questioning whether I am still licking wounds from latest misadventure or if something else is going on. Self-analysis is always difficult – but better to try, to appreciate the magical feelings can still be achieved while at the same time realizing rarity, mathematical improbability of finding someone who produces all that and is, at the same time, like-minded in their interest in knowing me.

Readers with good memories will recall this is my special date. Most years I write about my sobriety, what it has meant to me, but I’m not sure I have anything new to add today beyond “it’s been a long time”. The need/urge/desire to drink is ancient history for me. Which it is. Ah, but if it was only that simple. The ‘how you run your life’ and how you structure your thinking process, how you manage from situation to situation, person to person, event to event – is as much a part of this ongoing never-ending life process, as was putting that glass down – for the last time, 31 yrs. ago today. There are many things in life I regret – and that isn’t one of them, because if I had not had that experience, I would not be able to understand who I am and why I am the person I’ve become …

Everybody – and everybody you know, has some moment of magic or tragic in them, some turning point at which they turned – or failed to turn or took too long to turn …

Reader feedback:

DRAINED

I believe as Albertans we may have gotten caught up in what was enough more so during the boom. When a lot was lost during the crash of the economy by many it’s a time we need to reflect on what is really enough; a roof over your head, food in the fridge, your sanity, your health and some time to enjoy life the way it was intended, with friends, family, or just a walk alone being surrounded by nature, WF, AB


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