I have days/tasks/projects which mysteriously and miraculously self-fuel themselves – all that drive, alive and thriving.
Then it isn’t.
Not because of snags or stage-to-stage issues but for reasons unknown.
No, that’s not right.
Undescribed, undefined, unexplained.
Something else intervenes. Suddenly drive is driven off-track. Most often nothing visible, nothing on paper or screen – nothing anyone said, all in my head. Not hearing voices – some call these ‘lizard brain’ events. Self-doubt isn’t this is not – more like self-defeat, self-degradation.
Followed by moments (or longer) of self-pity. Poor me. How unfortunate.
Is this an ugly dream? Then wake me up!
The question, is this ‘just another bad dream’, or are we having these moments truly conscious during waking hours?
Are they real, can we wrestle them to ground, or should we just crush them like a D-9 Cat … pushing on to where we need to go, using every ounce of energy and resources we can gather?
We aren’t down until we say we are.
We aren’t out until we say we are.
We aren’t dead until some doctor says we are.
Now, go back to sleep and try not to have another bad dream.
But we all know sleep has nothing to do with this when that dream is a ‘wide-awake’ nightmare. What can we do then? We could quit. We could keep going without changing much. We could keep going and change everything. But it isn’t an all-or-nothing proposition, is it? It might seem that way on tough days, at low points and on the days when good news in any form fails to arrive.
So, don’t look down.
Look forward. When things are bad, you are never as bad as you think you are. When things are good, you’re never as good as you think you are. Don’t worry about that distinction, just look up and you have no idea how many good things you’ll see.