FEELING MORE
Sunday, January 17, 2021- daily column #6640
I feel more than usual.
I don’t mean greater joy or pain or to laugh again.
I feel more about more.
That might imply thinking more deeply than more often – and when we are isolated, alone, and not being socially active these days, it gets confusing …
I feel my lumpy feet and bumpy toes more, and my woes more – feel them all more. I feel weak more, small more, and closer to the ground now. I’m firmly planted on earth and don’t feel at risk of falling off, though slippery sidewalks seem determined to make me fall over.
But more than all of that, I feel healthier more – more often, more days. I think clearer more, uncluttered more in my mind and in my landscape, I feel no more capable – but also more fearless than ever. I’m not feeling afraid of anything or anyone, and most of all, I’m not feeling afraid of myself, and I’m feeling far less fearful of failure in its many forms than ever.
I feel better than ever about every failure along my trail because every time I failed, I learned so much more than if I’d sailed right through every tough spot.