I think we all do in our minds, like we are ‘on trial’ like the Albert Brooks movie, in small ways.
We don’t have to defend ourselves to others – but somethings THEY think we should!
But we do need, I am convinces, need to defend ourselves to ourselves?
Important I think, when we do that, to be fair. A tendency I’ve witnessed, myself and in others, to be harsh in self-judgement, more severely than anyone else would judge us.
We’ve probably all dealt with moments of judgement or even ridicule when someone who thought they had the authority (parent, teacher, spouse, colleague, friend, critic …) to demand answers from us – about what we are doing and why. Why? Indeed. Who is the harshest critic? Ourselves of course, and each time we ask ourselves variations of ‘and WHAT was I thinking?’, most often when some dream has proven to be a pipedream, when our fascination with something or someone proves to be built in our heads without proper foundation … we give ourselves the scowl, the ‘looking down our noses’ look we’ve seen when others judge us, second-guess us and underestimate/misread the value of what we thought was a good idea at the time …
There is no perfect time for an idea.
No ideal time, place or circumstance for inspiration.
But every day – as if we were on trial, maybe it is a good idea to ask ourselves (just quietly to ourselves) to explain, justify and recognize why we do the things we do, and why we don’t do the ones we discard.