I regret a few people, a few decisions and many lost opportunities.
I admit to sadness about people, events, decisions and directions taken. More than anything I’ve learned things we regret and get sad about are what we haven’t done, things we haven’t tried, people we haven’t experienced, paths we’ve never walked.
In the dizzying world of new opportunity I wonder if we might be better served, rather than trying every next new thing, to try again things we avoided, choose the other path – see how that works out. Which of course begs the question whether I’m getting too old to try anything over or test myself against something I was afraid of, to see if these experiences might bring joy to fill some gaps.
P.S.: someone asked why my writing has been down a bit, wondering why my perspective seemed darker and less full of sunshine lately. The reasons are simple, clear and deep. Explaining them, not so easily done. In short, I’ve been reflecting – perhaps more than I should be – on the life of a friend I lost April 1st this year and my dog who died three weeks ago, and I’ve struggled to get over an emotional hump. Two humps actually. I wonder if we ought to learn more about grieving earlier in life so we are better able to handle it. On the other hand, maybe it just hits like a hammer whatever age you are and there isn’t much you can do about it. I’ve been told that time is the secret. I’m not yet convinced.
I haven’t been receive your daily Musing emails. They were greatly appreciated for my morning start. Hope all is well and this is just s small break as I don’t recall canceling your email. If so please put me back on the list. If not hope all is well and they will be back shortly. Regards, BH, Calgary, AB