What is the value of anxiety and tension in our lives?
Have you wondered about that?
What about tension and, is it the opposite of intention?
As moments of stress, fear, and trepidation come closer to me I have to question what kind of driving force that is and try to understand if this is a force for doing more good work and being more creative. In other words, is it a force to be harnessed and used or a force to be avoided or stopped?
So many forces are at work every day that make our body and mind take care of business – to make our bodies function, to go about tasks and routines, but those are almost automatic things we would do anyway without thinking. They are the forces that our evolving species have used to survive.
It seems the pace of busy lives and integration of technology in our lives, taken together with everything we do without thinking – I have to wonder what is going on for us all; are we thinking more or less? Are we rising to a higher level of conscious awareness, or falling back? Further, is that rising or falling something that is happening to us differently because of our respective stages of aging, or because we are consciously pushing that envelope?
There comes, I think, a time in life for seeing so many things in reverse, sometimes with great joy and great regrets at the same time, which causes us to smile and cry at the same time. I had one on those moments the other day. It was the release of tension on a scale I’m barely understanding yet but I recognize that powerful moment came. It hasn’t made the anxiety go away, but now those anxious feelings are turned around to help me, I hope, as the next step is taken. And then the next.
To be continued …
p.s. to regular readers – we’ve got a hiccup with the Substack platform regarding the mailing list for Musings. It seems, since that list was imported (new to them) and because more than a typical number of people unsubscribed from the list, their software triggered the account for review and questioning the source of the list, or in short, because more people left in a short period of time than Substack’s tracking felt was typical, it’s under review. What I fear won’t happen is that we have to remove the list and start over. Once restored, soon I hope, we can then publish/make live those columns that haven’t been sent out each day as planned.
AND - if you have a minute - I've relocated the Monday Morning Minute publication. It's now over on my 'Mark writes here' profile at Substack.