By what means can we be real, be ourselves, stay calm, be rational – feel emotion, step into situations fully without wallowing in pity puddles – all while avoiding bad behavior leakage, reactions we’d not have when cooler heads prevail and intemperate things we say which we would otherwise keep in check so maturely?
Getting through a tough day or a tough time causes us to behave differently. I believe this is a certainty. I know it happens for me, happens to me – so I assume it happens to everyone.
It isn’t about stress. I’ve had this happen when I’ve been stressed, but a recent experience during a time when I wasn’t stressed at all produced a similar result, so my armchair-psychology analysis suggests it isn’t stress related.
It’s emotional, pure and simple. And raw.
Sometimes I know the cause (i.e. someone is gravely ill) as I’ve recently been experiencing. I’ve known it before when something was going badly in my life (i.e., relationships, finances, deals-collapsing) and in each instance things leak out. Anger, sarcasm, knee-jerk reactions (sometimes just ‘being a jerk’) fits too. And mostly in self-destructive ways.
So my pondering goes to the issue of ‘can this be prevented?’