LIFE IS TOO COMPLEXIFIED
Thursday, May 13, 2021
Every kick in the teeth is a kick in the rear.
And every kick in the rear is a lift forward, right?
Life is easy.
Simple, nuthin’ to it, right?
Life is hard.
Simple, nuthin’ to it, right?
Any given day, most of us can answer yes to both – and too often, for me at least, there forms a log jam of thoughts and feelings. To have great ideas, great disappointments, and emotional lifts while colliding with roadblocks, obstacles, difficulties and people who won’t cooperate with my plans.
Such is the plight of every pimply-faced part-time shoe salesman like the one I started out being, to the wizened grizzled middle-aged curmudgeon. Of course, some will argue I’ve passed middle, but that depends on where middle is located.
But I digress …
I feel un-tethered sometimes, as I expect others do too. Looking in the mirror too often feeling unhappy and disappointed by what I see. It’s harsh, sometimes harsher than deserved, but I’ve done enough in my life that I’m not proud of that I’m sure I deserve some self-derision.
Too many things in life seem too complexified, and I get it wrong more than right – and looking back at this path that got me from adolescence to here …
What people do, and why they do it – is of great interest to me. I find value in learning why and why not – and isn’t that part of figuring ourselves out – to explain how we’ve done what we’ve done, felt what we’ve felt, regretted what we’ve regretted – to understanding something and for understanding ourselves.
This brings me full circle to wonder what I’m doing and why, how I got here – far off any track I’d ever plotted or planned. Some days have been feeling valued and valuable, some days feeling failed – so yes, life is hard, and every day brings the question of whether we should change course to do something utterly different vs. doing the same old things. Saddest of all are those days when it feels like either approach is fruitless. Unfortunately, too many of those days lately.
Time for change in attitude and actions – yesterday was a pivotal day of thought and commencing some action steps. Risky, perhaps. But the greater risk is treading water or running in place.