REALITY CHEQUE CZECH CHECK
Wednesday Nov. 1, 2017
Each month that passes, when I’ve not done much beyond ‘get through the month’, I wonder why?
Sometimes, an obvious answer – something got in the way of my plans, business/clients/personal issues derailed the plan. For a month that is a one-off. For three months, that’s a trend. For year – well, who gets a year back? For the past year I’ve been trying a two prong approach to begin a new project/new chapter. The rationalization, the blame, the excuses are many … too many things have been in the way, too many people who expressed interest in the project have not been behind it. The better question, is whether I am behind it? Of course I am – but each time another month of inaction passes, I must question whether I am. Or not. Are those obstacles/excuses and rationalizations real or just my way of avoiding my lack of commitment to the ‘next chapter’. I don’t need another year to pass (too many have passed already …) to know that math and time are not on my side, but other things could be. Like commitment, like allies who are committed, getting obstacles out of my way – first in my head, then on my table, then in reality …
High energy, low energy. What drives this? Sometimes driven by how much sleep we got, the sniffle we got, some sadness we got – mostly physical/emotional things determine how we feel. Our energy can rise or fall based on thoughts we have, memories we have, thinking we do – because our mind is our source, people are our source, memory is our source and fantasy is our source.
