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ONLY ONE PERSON IN CHARGE
Wednesday Oct. 15, 2014
Hills.
And valleys – great metaphors for mood.
Much better day yesterday.
Sharp contrast with recent malaise (pity-party is over, feeling sorry for myself have passed). Sometimes external forces are a great help.
Most often, what I need, what I needed, was right here all along.
I do best when focused – not so much sticking with routine or ritual, but sticking with what works best for my brain, what keeps me performing my best every day.
Focus.
Focused.
There will always be time for morose.
Not difficult to dial that up, but who needs that?
What changed?
Not much really.
My attitude.
My choice to be fit, healthy and happy recurring in my mind and realizing there is only one person in charge of being fit. Only one person in charge of the healthy. Only one person in charge of the happy. There isn’t a single solution for any of those.
I got wondering about some contributing factors and wondering:
Why things happen …
Is that a statement?
Or question, without punctuation …
When people stop calling, why is that?
When I stop calling them, why is that?
When days end before the work does, why is that?
When those we need and want have no need for us and don’t want us, why is that?
Greatest struggle for most of us – or for me anyway, is acting UP in spirit when I don’t feel it, being optimistic when signs tell me not to be, and acting strong on the outside when I completely weak on the inside.
Three supportive calls yesterday.
Friends reaching out.
Doesn’t get much better than that, does it?
Mark Kolke
column written/ published from Calgary
morning walk: 5C/42F, calm, heavily overcast – what tall people and pilots call a VERY low ceiling, some rain started, then stopped, then started again. Gusta scared more rabbits than scare her …
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