GULP
Wednesday Oct. 29, 2014
Like that shoulder tap, at a party.
Or après-meeting.
Daring?
Do?
That: “Oh my, what have I _____” moments, words escaped lips, or you hit send, left that meeting, or left impression different than you wanted to have given?
You aren’t really sure …
Conundrum.
Happens in personal relations (and, I am convinced, in most failed attempts).
Business ones too – when situations/comments present themselves. We just don’t know, and might never know, what would have happened if we’d said a different thing. Acted on a feeling. Trusted that impulse.
Lives might have changed. Then, there.
Or, might have been one of those poof-moments, where fantastic daydreams exploded into that nothing was really happening.
More complex than having sent a message that might be re-thought, is the conundrum of receiving one – and wondering what someone meant?
Did they overstep?
Or did he/she hold back, did they write what I think they meant – or did they mean something completely different?
Yesterday someone sent me such a note where, if situations were reversed, I might be having those feelings, that ‘oops’ feeling of wondering if I’d gone too far.
Or not far enough.
When we reveal something to anyone it can be a moment of letting cat out of its bag, or letting genie out of his bottle …
To venture, or not, is the heart of these questions.
Most often, we make safe choices. Expected choices. Not ‘drop everything and hop on adventure’s plane’.
Inkling, urge, endorphin surge …
What is this?
Is life’s joy found in taking our time?
Or wasting none?
Oh my, look at the time.
Mark Kolke
column written/ published from Calgary
morning walk: 6C/42F, early moonless wandering – Gusta following her nose, my brain in search of prose – who knows, whether walking helps the writer but it seems to do some good for aches and creaks of mid-life physicality reality while I wondered about places with lights on, whether they’ve been left on all night or if early risers live there …
Reader feedback / comments always welcome:
I would have to agree that yes, indeed, you are remarkable. Not so much for what you have done or what you are going to do. Mainly for what you are willing to share with us all; the ability to be transparent with an honesty that is appealing and believable. It makes getting to know you a pleasure. It also makes it nice to see your "Mark Musing daily column" address in my inbox. GW, Bon Wier, Tx.
