Sunday Sept. 24, 2017
Nothing for publication yet, but somethin’s cookin …
Ever had things humming, then not?
Ever have days or weeks like that, fearing some bubble will pop?
Me too. Can’t worry about it. How do we know – is it a bubble, is someone out there with a gigantic pin to pierce it?
Scary, exciting … you get the picture.
Having ‘house in order’, workflow/life-flow, health, fitness, sunshine, happiness – not every single day, but most days – elements in balance. Love to have them humming like a fine Swiss movement, but my furtive plans leave me slightly breathless, more like Swiss cheese – full of ventilation holes. Heavy breathing, fresh into stale.
I’m pondering this more, partly about new connection. Intrigued. And thinking back – reviewing complex times vs. calm times, wondering ‘when I’ve been happiest’. Easy answer: ‘when he’s in love’, but that’s simple deflection from deeper reflection. Whether love interest, something fantastic going on in my family, something dramatic with work or friends or some exciting business nuance. Knowing my energy level, my enthusiasm level and my sense of feeling fulfilled ….
Energy level is way up, enthusiasm level is way up and effectiveness seems to be running in high gear. And when I say that, none of it has to do with ‘new woman in my life’. At this point I’m really out on a limb using that term, but I’ll use it because I’m more thrilled than afraid, more excited than I can recall in a long while and more calm than I’ve ever recalled. Early days, yes indeed. Early days … humming.
Everyone has these moments of reflection.
Or wants them …