Ideas, new ones, are curious things – we embrace some and completely (perhaps irrationally) reject so many others.
It’s like rain falling on concrete or pavement – most of it runs off.
If there are cracks, some of that rain will get through. But not much.
I struggle often with ‘how to interpret things’ that happen, ideas that float through my mind and feelings which erupt or leak-out without predictability. Maybe they are predictable but I’m not an objective party watching from across the street. I am right here inside of me looking out at the world and some days it is the most pleasant sight, some days a complete mess and almost always a conundrum of contradictions …
So sorry for your loss. The pain is real, the hole in your soul large. Reflections, memories, little things of safe keeping is what we hold on to. I feel your lose. My best friend of 36 years passed away in 2015 and her death still stings. Miss her terribly because we did everything together, got married, had kids etc. Hold onto the memories and talk to him everyday. He hears you. Watch for the signs that will appear when you need them. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, MJ, Calgary, AB